something went horribly askew.

It's been a month. More. I was very sick for about a week and a half... ugh. With a 102 degree fever and vomiting. That doesn't fuel the creative juices very well, but I had some intriguing dreams and I think I had at least one hallucination.
I had a little break down, also, and I've been working a bunch, but not enough.
But I'm better now. For awhile. I have the week off and I hope to buckle down and keep the house cleaner and get more serious artwork done. I need to pick up more bristol board and watercolor paper/cold press... gah shopping.
I have been drawing, in my sketchbook. My lovely discounted Piccadilly. The paper hold everything from pencil to watercolor to ink.
I haven't done anything really finished. But it's good to keep doodling.
Just keep on keepin' on.
Like that kitten on the branch. Hanging in there.

Love, Nate.


music: Eli, The Barrow Boy - The Decemberists [Picaresque]
book: The Mysterious Benedict Society - Trenton Lee Stewart

Papagenu.

New sketches. Within the last week.
Mostly graphite and watercolor.
Animals from the zoo and random people that don't really exist.

LOVE,
Nat.

P.S. I started watching more Glee. It is adorable. I'd only seen the first three episodes, and I loved them, but now I'm finally able to watch the rest of them. Just keeps getting better.

music: The Crane Wife 1 & 2 - The Decemberists

little by little.

I have an interview for a clothing retail job tomorrow. I might have to work both jobs, or simply decline this new one, if they can't offer me enough money/time. I haven't had two jobs in a few months, so maybe I should again? Scheduling gets weird, though, but we'll see. Luckluckluck.

I had a bit of a mental collapse last week. Mostly hormonal, I guess, but I felt helpless and penniless and generally grasping at straws. I could barely go a day without crying.
I have a degree in art, that I earned last year, and now I'm a cashier making just enough money to pay rent, bills, and student loans, along with the occasional bag of groceries. So far, my degree feels like a weight around my neck. I did so much to get it and now I feel like a loser for not finding any job connected to it.
I also worry a huge amount about money I need/don't have. I feel that the only way to get out of this funk is to go back to school and get a degree in something I don't want, like business, or become a lawyer or doctor or something... but I don't want to be those things. Gah!

I have also been missing a lot of my friends from my home town, but since I haven't been staying in touch with many of them very well, I feel a little too distant to reconnect... blah. Also, I've lost connection with a lot of college people and that makes me sad.
I don't want to be downer, that wasn't the point of this post.

But I still find time to draw and read. And I love the house I'm living in and the people I'm living with. Also, my parents and sister are wonderful. And on my days off I am usually happy.

Still, I feel better, but I am in a weird brain space. It'll pass, honey.

-Love,
Nathalie Victoria.

music: The Pick of Destiny OST
book: The Mysterious Benedict Society by Trenton Lee Stewart

$2.99

quote featured here (above) is from Reading In Bed by Emily Haines and the Soft Skeleton. Album: Knives Don't Have Your Back. Great drawing music.




Some random doodles I did on my day off today.
I also threw in some watercolor experimentation.
Just for funsies.
They are not specific people.
And they are completely random... from my brains.

Watched Ghostbusters 1 and 2 today. Glorious.
Then spent most of the rest of the day watching old Bob Dylan videos on Youtube, drawing, and playing with my computer.

Love, Nan

music: You Belong - Hercules and Love Affair

one of the boys.

This is from a dream I had. After I walked to work past a chapel with crows perched on its cross.


"come hell or high water."

better start swimming or you'll sink like a stone...

Triana Orpheus from The Venture Brothers.




Bar-tailed Trogon. But I can't find the plain-tailed Trogon. Is there one? If not, the differentiation is kind of silly. Just sayin'.


I've been feeling a little off lately, like I am missing something, but I can't place it.
Watched Smokin' Aces last night. It was OK. The multiple-perspective plot was neat and a couple of characters were developed really well, but it was pretty formulaic in a lot of ways. Still worth seeing at least once. If you like action. The DOP did a good job.

Headache day. Been getting those more often than usual these past few months. I blame it mostly on the florescent lights at work. And I haven't been drinking enough water, probably.

Love, Nan


music: Katy Perry
book: No. 1 Ladies' Detective Agency

p.s. as soon as I put on my orange floral skirt, the sun went away...

Imaginarium.

Leeloo from The Fifth Element.

Multi-Pass.
Yes, she knows it's a multi-pass...


-Nate.

superhero.

My gift to Kevin for our ninemonthsaversary.
It's a quote from A Midsummer Night's Dream, scene I.
We say it all the time. Nerds!

It turned out a lot different than how I pictured it, but it still turned out pretty good and he thinks it's really cute, so that's all that matters.

More updateage soon.

*hearts* Nate.


music: Daft Punk - Discovery