Sunday, June 19, 2011

water, which is lower than all things yet stronger even than the rocks.

Don't worry. I will never forget you. Look. I've been drawing and everything. I've just been out in the wide world trying to fend for myself too.
I am still a cashier and I still hate it. But there have been a lot of improvements.
My boyfriend and I had a terrible fight, but we got through it and we are better for it. Stronger. I have convinced myself that I can admit that I have depression and I am seeking medical help. Stronger. I am applying for more jobs. I am applying for food stamps on Friday so I don't feel so stretched out because of money... I hate when money makes me cry and get all anxious. I am hanging out with friends more and I feel better for it. I am also trying to get some more alone time with myself. I feel crowded a lot and I get stressed when I don't have proper time to clear my head. And the bus rides no longer feel like enough alone time. Stronger. I am making an effort to listen to more happy music. I am trying to read more and watch good shows. I am ignoring commercials and people who make me mad. I am ignoring people who are mean for no reason. It's a waste of energy. They don't matter. I am trying to have more fun at work. Trying.

I love you and I love art and I just wanted you to know that I am still here and I am still making art.

"I'm an artist first"

Nata <3

music: Be My Yoko Ono - Barenaked Ladies